May God's love be with you, always.

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows higher than the soul can hope and or the mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)
Wed Feb 16

A day too late. And Rome is really far the frick away.

L is for the way you look at me.

When I told you about the letters, you looked at me like you had had an epiphany.  No one has ever made me feel precious, in the purest sense of the word.  I barely knew you, and you barely knew me, but you looked at me like you had just realized you had known me for your whole life. 

O is for the only one I see.

It’s been almost a year since Rome, I haven’t seen you since, and I only technically know three things about you.  I still can’t get you out of my head.

V is very very extraordinary.

There are certain moments in life where you know it’s a significant moment, an extraordinary slice of time that you know you’ll never get back.  Meeting you was a piece of time that was extraordinary.  I’ve never made a connection to another person in the amount of time we talked.  We talked about simple things, things people take for granted but thats what made it special.

E is even more than anyone that you adore.

Thank you.

One night in Rome, I met a young man on vacation with his family.  He was heading to bed and noticed the couple I was talking to were wearing BYU gear.  He stopped, sat down, and began talking with us.  After a while, the conversation turned into just a conversation between him and I.   The couple left, and we continued talking.  I only know his first name, his religion, the state he lives in, and where he spent time doing mission work.  But, somehow I know him better than I know most people.  As we said goodbye we simply looked each other in the eye.  It was an honest look, and we knew we would probably never see each other again.  We lived in different states, he was a bit older than me, and our religions would never allow anything other than friendship.  As he walked away, I wanted to call out to him and ask him for his address.  I didn’t.   If by some miracle we ever meet again, I’ll be sure to ask.

Tue Dec 21

Today

I told the Head of Greek Life that Greek Life is not real life.  My sisters are real, and the bond we share is more real than anything I have experienced, but the little things that are over dramatized and made to be a huge ordeal have absolutely no significance in real life.

I can’t tell you how empowering it felt.  I’m ready for real life, whatever that is.

Tue Sep 21

5 year plan

Three years ago I thought I would be today:

a. taller (don’t ask me how that thought got in my head)

b. in a serious relationship with the potential to be married

c. focused

d. planned, calculated, and collected

I am none of the above.  And I’m alright with it.

Mon Aug 30
Through the storm, through the night, lead me on Lord to the light. Take my hand, precious Lord, lead me home.
Sun Aug 22
Fri Jun 11
Take me here.

Take me here.

Everyone needs a savior. Be it minor, be it major. American Aquarium
Wed Jun 9
What if I had given him my address?  What if an hour’s worth of conversation really could have altered my life?  What if my prayers had not gone to waste on someone who didn’t deserve them?  What if my friend and father didn’t have to suffer?  What if dementia didn’t exist? 
I ask myself some of these questions daily.  I long for the day when I don’t have to ask them any longer.

What if I had given him my address?  What if an hour’s worth of conversation really could have altered my life?  What if my prayers had not gone to waste on someone who didn’t deserve them?  What if my friend and father didn’t have to suffer?  What if dementia didn’t exist? 

I ask myself some of these questions daily.  I long for the day when I don’t have to ask them any longer.

Thu May 27

Dude! i had fun. but come on

mellynotsosmelly:

BUZZ OFF

Why do I always get the crazies?

Tue May 25

Fish

I’m sick of my home being attacked. 

I’m worried about my friends with shrimp boots sitting in their cars, waiting for an oppurtunity to be used.

I’m worried about the barrier islands and the protection they give me and my home.

I wish God would let us appreciate our home for more than 5 year incrimates.  I wish He would just let the good times roll.